⇦ FOLLOW ⇨

"What's it like dating a boyfriend in army?" This is the most common question which has people asking me numerous times when I finally manage to bring myself to socialise. Well let me tell you that.. IT FUCKING SUCKS.

I don't mean Zimri sucks, I mean the new lifestyle that I have to adjust to, the amount of bullshit that the sergeants put him and his mates through, the amount of time been spent waiting.

It's just so frustrating when they control his entire life and you want him back and they make it so fucking difficult for you two. I think it's just me but I have come to the point where I am so frustrated that they have taken my boy away.

I miss him so much and there isn't much I can do about it but wait, wait for the day he books out and finally be back in his arms again. I really miss him and I don't know how to tell him that.. it is so freaking tough putting a strong front to my friends when they ask me about him cause they expect me to say all the positive things and all.

I mean like, I do become independent in a way and discover myself more during our time apart. But fuck all of that cause tonight is just not my night and I finally give in to my inner demons.

Goodnight.